I Can’t Draw

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Nov. 25 2014 / Beijing / At Home

去年年底列的计划里说 2014 年要画 10 张明信片送给喜欢的老师们。结果算了一下截至 11/24 只画了三张,要达成目标在这最后的一个月里我得画 7 张。想起最近一次动笔,已经是 6/16 的事情。那次画的是三文鱼寿司,原本是想为一个朋友要出的书尽点绵薄之力的。

因为前段时间发生的一些事,这个礼拜一开始就特别想画一张明信片。昨天终于完成了,我自己觉得很可爱(吐舌头)。原本想把这张明信片匿名寄出去的,但现在看来似乎没什么匿名的必要了… 至于画的是什么,那是一个秘密。我只想感叹一句:生活,真的是因为巧合而变得美好。

从来不觉得自己是一个会画画的人,所以在 instagram 上发画画的图都会打上 #icantdraw 的 tag。截至今天,2014 年一共画了 4 张明信片,每一张都是为了能收到的老师可以开心。画得不好,但随画寄出的心愿是单纯的。他们开心,我就开心。

Feeling Smart

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Nov. 21 2014 / Beijing / WandouLabs TGIF

一位善良的阿姨说:「聪明是天赋,善良是选择。」虽然我觉得真正聪明的人不会选择「不善良」,但我同意她说的「选择是要付出额外努力的」。莫名地想起「喜欢就会放肆,但爱就是克制」这句台词,看电影的时候觉着很无厘头,如今回头想想似乎有些道理,「喜欢」是不需要做牺牲的,但爱不一样,爱肩负着责任和使命。

最近一直想说说「选择」。虽然没活多少年,但自认在这件事上算是有一些经验教训。大学里光是专业就选了好几次。怕选择是怕承担后果,归根结底,是源于对未知的恐惧。如果说在国外的两年有了怎样的成长,我想是不再害怕选择了吧。若不是正在经历,你不会知道不后悔的生活模式有多好。你开始学着接受不完美的自己和别人、学着接受圆满或不圆满的结局。

没有那么多事情好抱怨。把目标放得大一些,就不会拘泥于小事情所带来的烦恼。认真做些事情吧,你所花费的时间的价值,将会适时地体现在你的人生坐标上。就像乔布斯老师在学字体排版的时候,也并不知道未来有天会用上呀。如果硬要说有什么烦恼的话,大概是… 明天中午要吃什么呢?

All Things Bright and Beautiful

I am about to embark on a wonderful trip of finding myself by writing this personal blog.

With me getting older and older, memories start to fade and sometimes twist. Strangely, I remember things from ten years ago and cannot recall what I did two hours before I sit in front of my Poker. (yep, I decided to call my computer Poker, isn’t that a cool name?) I began to realize how much I love Poker when he was sent to be repaired. He lost his memories now. Woo, I used “he” before I knew it. Hum…that could mean something.

It’s hard not to enjoy your life when you are in a sunshine state and surrounded by cute animals and flowers. I blame myself for not going out in a fine weather. Yet what I did most in the past year was sitting at home, chatting with Poker. Yes, I am what people called the stay-at-home type. Memories are so important that you need to create bright ones instead of dark ones.

I like writing in different languages, that makes me feel like playing – playing with the words. Words are brilliant creatures. They know you like you know them. They help you express hatred and love. They play with you and sometimes destroys you. But if you play with them carefully and smartly, they would become lovely elves leading your way.

Each language has its own rules and characters. They are floating in my head. By grabbing some of them and putting them together in a new order, I establish a brand new world only meaningful to myself. Well, hopefully you can sense this kind of joy in any possible way.

All things bright and beautiful
All creatures great and small
All things wise and wonderful

Have you seen these books written by James Herriot. To tell you the truth, I have bought them all yet haven’t read any of them.

—Momo Jin